I’m Literally Freaking Out

Hey guys! Help?!

I leave for Spain on Saturday. I am so blessed to be able to go on this trip and I know how lucky I am to be able to study abroad and to travel. But I’m literally freaking out.

How am I going to pay for all of my trips?

How am I going to go so long without seeing my family?

Are my classes going to be hard?

Am I going to feel really homesick and lonely?

Am I going to struggle big time with my Spanish?

Will my bed be comfy?

Will I have enough space in my suitcase?

Am I going to make new friends?

Will I forget anything? (I can already answer this, the answer is yes)

I feel like a lot of people must have the same questions before they go abroad. At least I hope they do, because if not then I probably seem crazy. Going abroad is an experience I’ve never had before. I’ve taken vacations without my family and I go away to college so I don’t see my family that often, but something about the distance is really unnerving. I am obsessed with my family, we’re really close so this is really scary. I’m also scared of the unknown. If you read my first ever post How to be a New Intern then you read a little bit about how I get pretty anxious about big changes in my life. I try to take steps to control how anxious I get about things, but this is a really big change and I’m struggling. Everyone I know keeps saying this is going to be such a fun time in my life and that I will have so much fun, but I’m sitting in my childhood bedroom and I’m already homesick. I hope when I get there I snap out of it and start having fun because this really is the trip of a lifetime.  I think this is a cry for help? I’m literally freaking out. I can’t organize my thoughts.

I guess this is kinda a lot to publish online, but I hope that if anyone reads this that is feeling the same way that they know that someone else felt that way too. Every time I feel like this, everything ends up turning out fine. I have a great support team behind me (my family) and I can do anything as long as I have them, I’m lucky. Also, I don’t get a ton of readers at this point so whatever lol. I think I’m going to follow up on this post and answer my own questions once I’m adjusted to being there.

I hope I post again before I get on that plane, but if not I’ll see you there!

Xoxo,

Kris

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  1. Susan Scott

    It will be fine and so will you xoxo

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    You’re going to have an amazing experience – just remember it’s a once in a life time chance to live in Spain like this and you want to make the most of it!! You’ll be amazing in every way!!

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